Obviously fake and gay as fuck.
However, thereās a lot of men that have never felt safe enough to do that with anyone. As we need it, badly, sometimes.
I cried the first time a gf was nice to me regularly.
I had some fucked up relationships. Iām doing good now though.
Feeling lonely sucks, but man, whenever Iām listening to some people talk about past relationships theyāve been in, I end up feeling happy it hasnāt happened yet.
I blame my parents. They have such an amazing mutually respectful, supportive and loving marriage that it has set an impossible standard for me to realize.
I wish media depicted more healthy relationships.
Half of people donāt seem to even have an idea of what mundane everyday loving behaviour actually looks like. And the other half does know, but fetishise unhealthy bullshit. (TBH I do too, but I want to engage in it playfully, not full on I will now proceed to straight up destroy you emotionally that Iāve run into with some people. )
I wish media depicted more healthy relationships.
And when they do they often portray them as effortless āfound my soulmateā kind of relationships which is not how the real world works. Even if you have an amazing partner you need to put in effort to be an amazing partner to them yourself.
My parents are the complete opposite of yours and I always felt like I had no role model to imitate. The thing is, you have to find your own way. And the one thing all parents need to teach their kids is independent thinking. Unfortunately, that also makes them harder to control, so many parents work actively against that.
No one and probably wonāt any time soon for a plethora of reasons. When I hooked up with a guy for the first time he really made me feel attractive and wanted and I almost broke down too. Terrible self-esteem and being starved for affection is a rough time.
As a level 1 autistic man, Iām a magnet for toxic women. Itās like they hunt for guys like me. It takes me a really long time around a woman before I drop my guard.
Maaaaate same. There was this one girl I dated whom Iāve told I just donāt feel like doing what she felt like doing that night and she said āAlright, we can just watch some more eps of <show we were watching>ā and I broke down right there and then.
I ended up forcing my own options on her which isnāt healthy in itself but we could and can talk about this and itās so weird.
Can confirm, lived my life as a guy 20yrs online, 30irl. Almost cried the first time someone held me. Wasnāt even romantic, just platonic. I swear half of the worldās problems would be solved if people were more accepting of men sharing physical affection.
Aināt that the damn truth.
Iāve always been lucky to have partners and friends that were awesome about physical comfort and affection. But thereās been times they werenāt available, and itās the worst damn feeling to need that damn hug when youāre falling apart, and not having it.
Itās why Iāll never, ever turn my back on someone needing it, even if I donāt like them. Some things are just too damn important to hold back.
Honestly, itās the only thing I miss as middle aged single dad not dating. Someone to rub my hair while I cry in their lap. Nobodyās taken care of me in decades. Iāve got a lot to cry about. Kinda sucks. Anywayā¦ Back to manning up and working to exhaustion another few decades.
Fwiw, even if you donāt have access to a good comfort companion, you deserve it.
Thanks! We just lost our only free roaming pet so when the kid is away itās even emptier. I used to put my head on our catās furry belly as she purred and stretched, laid her chin on my arm it hand to keep me there. She always knewā¦ Saunter from across the house, hop on the bed, start kneading, settle in for a cuddleā¦ like she could hear my pulse and breathing change in her sleep several rooms away. Having said that, writing this response to your comment made me realize maybe Iāve been reaching out to start dating bc without the kitty crutch, Iām feeling I need that satisfaction from an actual human? š¤·
It would be very nice if we could not copy literal 4chan behavior here though, not even ironically.
Yeah, youāre missing the meme of it all.
While it may seem counterintuitive, the 4chan meme of any post being gay helps. If everything is gay, thereās nothing wrong with gay at all. Besides, have you got any close friends under about 30? The entire usage of gay as an insult has essentially disappeared because itās been reclaimed by young gay folks. Theyāve successfully taken it and made it a positive thing.
Back maybe ten, fifteen years ago, what were then gay kids started using it in an ironic way. Theyād be gaming or whatever, and someone would do something cool, and another would say, thatās great, but youāre totally gay. Back and forth like that.
Having grown up in an era where it was commonly an insult to be called gay, then seeing gay people gain access to their rights as fellow citizens, and then take old slurs and strip them of much or all of their power, itās beautiful. There was a time I would have made the same assumption you did. Iād have jumped all over someone saying the same thing.
But now? Itās a celebration of gayness. Itās saying that everything is gay, and thatās fabulous as fuck. Gay isnāt just okay, itās a thing we accept as commonplace.
When I use it in the context of greentext, itās recognizing that the assholes of 4chan lost. They didnāt get to keep the word and use it as a bad thing. It got taken from the bigots after lifetimes of use as a word of oppression, and thatās such a victory that it deserves celebrating by using it in this way.
Seriously, if you get a chance to hang around some younger LGBTQ people, take it. Theyāre the generations raised where being āgayā isnāt some horrible secret, it isnāt a doom of shame that you have to hide at all times. You sit around, or go shooting with, or whatever, and these folks are just casual about it. Hell, Iāve run into groups that are using fĆg the same way here and there. Not as common for sure, but it happens.
Obviously, if the context is such that itās being used as a slur, or even just derogatorily, the person doing so is an asshole. But thatās the key, they arenāt the ones with the power over the word now! The assholes and bigots are the ones that are treated with contempt and derision when they use the word. It really is fucking glorious, beautiful to see.
Man, I used to bounce at a drag club. I had to literally fight to keep the patrons safe from direct physical attack. Seeing the word gay become a term of endearment? I canāt describe how happy that makes me. I hear my kidās gay friends laughing and throwing it around at school, openly and nobody bats an eye because the power of it too be used as a weapon is finally gone. It fills me with joy to have lived long enough to see it happen. Iām typing this and crying thinking about it.
Theyāre gay, Iām gay, youāre gay, everyone is gay, and itās fucking amazing :)
I lost a partner doing that. Like flipping a switch, any interest in me was gone. Was struggling with depression, we knew eachother for a very long time, even dated in the past. Oh well.
Tons of southern women would literally lose their entire identity if their patriarchy disappeared tomorrow
I wouldnāt call it that. In the end, you arenāt responsible for what you like or dislike. And once you find someones āickā that you canāt deal with, itās hard to get over it. I have a bunch of those - racism, unwilingness to learn, regular smoking. Theirs was just āman cryingā. Also, there is crying and then there is holding in emotions and exploding. Sadly, Iām guilty of the latter. I donāt really blame them, rather I feel disappointed more than anything.
Itās happened to me twice. Shit sucks. I guess you could say if they lose interest for crying in front of them theyāre not good for you but I donāt exactly have women lining up to date me. If Iād known ahead of time Iād have kept my emotions to myself.
Masking to keep a relationship is not worth it. It makes you miserable and eventually you lose sight of who you are and just become the person you think others want you to be and feel empty inside. Or worse, it leads to self hatred and you end up lashing out at people.
Source: helping my partners overcome both sides of thisā¦
Yeah, but thatād be living a lie and hiding your emotions. Which is less healthy than being single. Meeting someone that likes you is something that can be done conciously rather easily with the right steps - but it does require a strong will, a lot of human interaction and a bunch of time. It also requires investing in yourself - living healthy, happy and mindful.
Fucking same, had just lost a mother figure my grand mother who I grow up with, never dealt with loss and had other things come into my life that exacerbated the situation. Anyway my ex split with me.
Sucked as I was there throughout her losses. Silver lining she was an enabler who had me drinking more, not working out. and now I am healthier inside and out, taken on therapy which has allowed me to face my demons.
Quote from my ex: āI like you more when you drank.ā
My exwife of 18 years dumped me when I went into a period of depression, fueled by the death of my father and a business failure. As soon as I ceased to be the rock, I became value less.
I had been there for her for two serious bouts of depression.
I have heard of similar things from friends. Men are not allowed to show weakness. Remember men were not supposed to cry until recently.
Wish me luck. My grandmother died last year. Lived with her for more years than i didnt. Spent the last 10 years watching her slip into the madness of dementia and alzhemiers not knowing what the hell im doing while her retired children enjoyed their retirement largely being absent. I had my younger brother with me thankfully, but we didnt know what the hell we were doing but we did our best.
My uncles put the house up for sale as quick as they could and forced us to move out inside a couple of months while we both had significant events at work that was causing us both to work overtime daily, and i work 6 days a week most weeks. I make 27 dollars now an hour, dont get paid overtime.
Therea tons of other things as well, but the closest thing to a father ive ever had threw me and my brother away after leaving the care of their own mother in our completely untrained hands for over a decade.
I understand blood feuds in a way i never thought possible on such a personal level
Sorry, that honestly really sucks of them.
Allowing oneself to be vulnerable is one of the greater signs of trust I can think of.
Whenever someone in my life opens up or shows vulnerability, Iām mostly honored that they trusted me enough.
Especially someone youāve known a while.
I hope you find someone in life where you can be open without strict roles and expectations.
I cried the other day, and my wife laughed at me as the tears rolled down my face.
Of course, I was waking up from a colonoscopy and crying about the fact that McDonaldās doesnāt serve Big Macs at 9:30am.
Huh, interesting that Australian McDonaldās has you beat in this regard. We have an āall day menuā where you can get big Mac, cheeseburger and chicken burger any time of day, and an āextended breakfastā menu where you can get Bacon & Egg McMuffin, Sausage & Egg McMuffin, Chicken McMuffin and Sausage McMuffin any time of day.
iāve lived in australia my whole life and iāve never heard of āaustralian mcdonaldsā
thats maccas, mate
/s im just being silly
Green text, but menās health is a disaster and this has been me in the past before therapy and meds.
To be fair though I have several lifelong comorbid depression and anxiety disorders that I didnāt get treated until I was 30. No 7 year old should have to be be suicidal.
I wonder how many other men are similar but never get treatment? Too many.
Yeah I know typically weāre all here for a laugh, but I genuinely canāt bring myself to make light of stuff like this.
There are millions of men in the world whose lives would likely be revolutionised if they had someone they felt this secure and safe with.
But our modern society doesnāt reward (and in most cases, actively punishes) emotional vulnerability in men, so instead many of us either lean into toxic masculinity or drown in our depression. Sometimes both.
Iām fortunate enough that I do in fact have someone in my life who I could be this vulnerable with, should I be so inclined, but I also acutely remember the days when this was exactly what I craved in life and thought I would never have, and the suffocating feeling of isolation as a result.
I hope things change.
Yeah I was fwb with a guy for a couple of years and it was very clear that one of the benefits he enjoyed most was using me as an unpaid therapist.
Iām not saying this to complain, Iām saying that a lot of men only seem to be comfortable talking about emotions with someone theyāre having sex with.
Yeah I was fwb with a guy for a couple of years and it was very clear that one of the benefits he enjoyed most was using me as an unpaid therapist.
FRIENDS with benefits
JFC, what do you say when the friends that donāt bang you come to with emotional problems, laugh in their face?