If you feel like you are always watched, you might want to check in with a psychiatrist. In all seriousness.
Integrity isn’t just about doing the right thing when nobody’s watching; it’s also about being mindful of the consequences of your actions. Heck, I’d say that’s the more important side. You might start dumping chemicals into the water without treatment because it’s cheaper and there’s technically no laws against it. But you’re still going to be physically responsible when everyone who lives there starts miscarrying every single pregnancy and the town is abandoned because of your misdeeds.
Of course, just because there’s an audience doesn’t mean you’re pandering to it.
Fundamentally, integrity is an internal concept.
Only you can know if you have it, because only you can truly know your motivations.
As long as your moral choices are truly based on your own principles and you would do the same regardless of observation, then you have integrity.
External factors can only give you reasons to pretend you have integrity, but they can’t prevent you genuinely having it.
Is this a leading question regarding religion?
Anyway, if you can’t control the watcher, and the premise is they are always there, and always will be, you still have to live a life.
If all they ever do is watch, they technically have no impact on you, so your opinion of integrity is unchanged. It’s like they don’t really exist, aside from the observation.
If they have some judgement on you, then you are functionally living under duress, and the concept of integrity is a mess. There are far bigger problems happening to your “life”
No, it’s not solely about religion, but it is part of it. It was motivated by me trying to understand myself.
I was raised by a parent that was always keeping tabs on whether or not i was doing shit right. He let me know when i didn’t. This was followed by an ex wife that proved to be exponentially worse.
I was also raised Christian, but have since evolved my ideas of what a higher power may or may not be. I know this has a lot to do with how by brain functions today.
I guess the leading part was if anyone else feels the same way.
I may have gotten a bit too high last night.
This is just religion right