It is? Oh god, then why haven’t they had fuck all success treating me? Is something worse wrong with me?
Depression/Anxiety are not well understood. It’s not uncommon or odd to be resistant to treatment. Also treatment is about managing the symptoms. Sadly there is no cure
I’ll be honest, sometimes it will get so bad that I play the whole “what happens if I end up in grippy socks and they ask if I want to get better?” Scenario and I sit there and think, you know I don’t really want to get better, because it would be denying my own strengths.
I recently discussed with someone about how impossible it is for me to not analyze all information and reason certain possible scenarios. The fact that some people can just not analyze everything is so strange to me, even realizing that the analysis is part of the problem.
The only thing I know is that a few drugs temporarily turn it off. And that scares me knowing that happens but we don’t know why.