Unfortunately, I think this is because pretty much every endeavour in life, if you have (severe) ADHD, feels like that. At that point it doesn’t really make a difference.
I have severe ADHD and exsisting is a pain. (I’m not suicidal, it’s just painful to do/achieve anything at all)
this is how I became a software developer
If you have ADHD then hyper focus kicks in and you bet your ass you will be the best person for the job in no time. Add on that imposter syndrome that makes you work double hard and however many decades of self loathing and self hate you have to make you want to over achieve. I somehow went from music degrees to managing a $40 million budget, but it makes sense, sorta.
That’s how I learned JavaScrpt Python and C++. Now I’m programming my own embedded project on a RP2040 with touchscreen, IMU and addressable LEDs. On top of that I learned thanks to my drone hobby how to solder and assemble circuits and with my 3D printing hobby I can print custom parts to hold the electronics I assembled and programmed. Now I’m reading component data sheet before bed and playing puzzles with i2c communication tables. Fun!
My background is filmmaking, I’m a camera operator. I don’t work in IT or engineering. I started these hobbies for fun and they have started to blend into something a loser to a job (that I really enjoy)
This is the sort of person I want to be until mid way through, my crisis begins, as I understand that there are people way better than me at insert current task because I must completely be good at it or it isn’t worth it, I just lose my will power at that point and get depressed, give up and repeat the cycle with something new.
