I couldn’t learn this in teenagehood nor early adolescence so I have to learn it now. I don’t want to go into details of my upbringing, but think about a kid living on the streets, growing up only knowing war and survival
Masturbate
More stuff:
Bake cookies
Listen to an audiobook or podcast
Go hiking or take a walk. Or ride a bicycle
Write a short story
Some good answers here already, if none of that suits you, you can always clean and tidy up wherever you live.
Whatever makes you happy is time spent constructively, wanna play games, time well spent, wanna read, still well spent. Dont burden yourself with the ridiculous optimizing yourself philosophy so many self help people adhere to (unless thats what makes you happy).
You don’t always need to be doing productive/constructive things. Rest and leisure are valuable too. But if you insist, I suppose the first step would be to come up with a list of goals you want to accomplish.
Thankyou, my internal child agrees. I’m exhausted. Since a couple months I have a job for the first time where I feel safe, which is awesome.
I’m sad that I’ve never been able to play, like I don’t even know how.that is … I wish I could also have emotional memories of playing like a kid on the playground
