I hope everyone is doing great! I have been having a rough few days hehe, I would normally be sleeping rn but I cant due to anxiety for a few days, i don’t have anyone else to talk with at the moment so here I am
Edittt: Also idk how many of u who come across this are anime fans, ignore otherwise, but for some reason i hv been wanting to watch (something like) toradora once again lol, it kinda keeps my mind occupied so i think of anime all day lol, if anyone has any suggestions pls drop them :)
I am doing great.
I’m staying at a ridiculously opulent villa on a sun-drenched hillside in Italy. I had a fantastic watermelon salad with feta and prosciutto washed down with half a bottle of an excellent dry rosé for lunch. I’ve just finished a really good book and I’m about to go for a quick dip in the pool, then will probably play a board game with my wife and kids.
I tell you all this, not to gloat, but to highlight change and the possibility of it.
I’ve experienced depression and crippling anxiety in the past and, while you’re in the depths of it, it can be hard to believe things will ever change for the better.
But they can and they will.
You will have light and love and laughter again, my friend. You just need to tell yourself that this time is just a moment and like all moments it will pass, it is transitory like a cloud passing in front of the sun, a shadow cast over you.
I’ll raise a glass to you and drink to the shadow moving on from you sooner rather than later.
why are you anxious
oh fair. well if you’ve been thinking of anime, maybe try that new deer one? seems good!
Hmm i m not that much into the latest anime i just kinda watch sometimes, so idk abt what new ones which are airing, i feel like watching rn because it will divert my mind definitely
Thanks for the suggestion definitely :)
I’m trying to avoid existentialism lately. It’s been a bit debilitating. I have worked on my mindmap for my science fiction world Parsec 7 yesterday. That got me back into trying to figure out AI augmented generation (RAG) tools because Parsec 7 is the result of something like 30 very long conversations with AI and some detailed roleplaying. I wish I had the tools savoy to get AI to consolidate all the info for me, but I’m not that good.
Instead, today I started putting together a database of Flash Forth information to use with a RAG because it is more structured to where I can use it. The Forth language on microcontrollers gets me excited for some stupid reason even though I never seem to make anything more than cat toys.
I feel so dumb lol, i m not as techie as most of lemmy I m in high school ¯_(ツ)_/¯
Anyway i hope u succeed on whatever u r trying to do, i don’t understand lol
It seems like u r making some fictional reality game and uhh mapping ur brain on some thing?! ◉_◉
Yeah. It’s mostly stuff from age and a constant curiosity in life.
Forth is a weird language that is really old but works differently than any other common language now. Like even in HS I hope they are teaching you basics like Python. With Forth you have a dictionary made of words and words can be anything. You build programs by assigning stuff to words, like 2+2=4 can be math-sucks in the dictionary. It’s a useless example, but whatever. Words in Forth can be made of other words in combination too. You end up trying to figure out projects in steps where you’re trying to simplify your goals into a word or few instead of like typical programming where you’re building larger and more complex systems that are difficult to understand and manage.
Parsec 7 is just a name I made up for a science fiction story based on positive futurism. I occasionally post about related concepts I’m thinking about in the story on Lemmy not that that matters. The story is in the distant future when science is complete. I strive to make it extremely hard science fiction, meaning there is no magical technology, no faster than light travel, and no aliens, there are not many people that live on planets either. Everything in the story is within the technology limitations we currently have. The only difference is access to wealth and the results of ongoing scientific discovery. I primarily focus on telling the story of a colony around the star Alsafi. It is a G-type star like the sun and is one of several G-type stars with colonies within 7 parsecs of Sol and the cislunar (space between earth and moon) central home of humanity.
The entire story is based around a way to create mortal flesh and blood artificial intelligent human like entities. The reason for this is simple, most of the stories about AI are dystopian (negative/doomsday). In reality, those stories are not actually about AI, they are the equivalent of a Greek pantheon machine-god mythos. It is an all powerful god like destroyer of worlds. That is simply not realistic and has nothing to do with AI and the real dangers it can pose or the benefits. So I play with a story where humans and AI exist as mortal equals to play around with ethics and issues in a more grounded perspective.
So yeah, old man boring stuff.
Ah Ok, I understand it now haha, yeah they taught us python iirc end couple of years in middle school and the first couple years of high school, now i hv had the option so i opted out since i m not that interested in AI and computer stuff but rather mechanics and electromagnetism stuff like that
Thanks a lot for explaining to me tho, its not boring it seems kinda cool actually
I’m doing quite well. About a month ago I broke up with my ex, but since then I’ve done the following:
- Signed up for a performance dance class (I was already dancing, mostly to get more social)
- Made a connection there, so now the son of a woman I dance with is helping me fix bikes to give away
- Hosted two groups of guests riding their bicycles past my home (strangers, who I’ve enjoyed talking with)
- Put in more hours with the bike rescue, building some stronger bonds with people there
- Found out that one newish friend is planning on moving away. Boo hoo
- Completed a lot of DIY work for a kitchen remodel
So I am single, and likely to remain that way for a while. But I feel quite fulfilled, and I feel like I’m in a position to develop more, stronger friendships, platonic or otherwise. It has been an effort to get to this point, and the journey is far from over, but I’m happy to see progress.
Anxiety sucks, I hope that improves for you real soon! I’m doing great. I ordered food shopping online which is arriving tomorrow and I can’t wait to eat a lot of delicious food since I love eating! 🤤
As for anime, have you watched Clannad?
