It taught me how much i wasted my youth by being a pussy and not improving my skills
Yeah, as a teenager I got curious and was on rotten.com, damn that website was dark. Some of the things I saw are still with me, I won’t describe them because it would be way too graphic. Basically what you said - do not do it there is nothing to be found except suffering.
I still have random intrusive thoughts about it and it makes me physically ill.
That’s a good thing in my book, the fact that that stuff still makes me feel bad is proof of my empathy and humanity, if you know what I mean? Like it didn’t desensitize me.
Edit: after I wrote the comment I noticed that the website got hyperlinked - don’t bother, thank God that site is offline now
I used to watch this stuff. It didn’t really bother me. Then my childish curiosity waned and I didn’t seek it out anymore. Then I saw a video randomly and I was fucking so disturbed and I thought what is wrong with me that I wanted to see that.
I guess I developed empathy at some point? I’ve seen some of the videos from Ukraine and they make me sick.
