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It’s a wild ride. One moment I am in the shower, actually kinda happy with the progress 3 months of hrt have done so far and the next I am having a panix attack not knowing weather all of this is right for me or all in my head. This can happen like 5 to 6 times a day and it sucks. Overall tho I am living in a safe for now country and have a really solid relationship so whatever happens, I am at least not alone.
it’s exhausting, but in my experience it lessens in intensity and frequency over time as you get used to it; it helps to really connect with facts that can ground your decision: you felt happy with the changes, you probably want more changes - that’s all that matters, focusing on those positive feelings can sometimes help
