I can’t even begin to imagine how it must feel to know that so many people on this planet would kill you just for existing…
Unfortunately I know people who literally talk about how they’re “just waiting for the orders” anytime queer people, homeless people, liberal politics in general come up.
It’s an incredibly shitty feeling. Going through life knowing that there are people literally down the road just waiting for the chance to brutally murder someone for loving someone.
And I live in the US in an area commonly referred to as a blue state. Literally on the border of a major metro area.
Jesus Christ, that sounds… insanely stressful and horrible…I don’t even know what else to say, I’m truly sorry you have to go through that…
It’s definitely shitty and stressful a lot of the time that’s for sure…
The air is changing in the area (especially compared to when I was young) in a good way but the ones that have shitty views are getting more blood thirsty in how they talk. The youths are getting more progressive here, hell I was getting ice cream with a boyfriend a few months ago and we overheard some teens openly talking about being queer. When we were that young we wouldn’t have dared to do that fearing for our lives.
If shit does hit the fan (like we do fear) at least my friends and found family have plans for how to make it out the other side alive. And hopefully inspire others to continue the fight no matter the odds.
I’ve had people openly admit they think it’s just and good that I’ll go to hell for being queer. And the majority of my family follows the same doctrine, so… I don’t think I even know how I feel about it tbh.
Oh, god, had my fair share of familial religious zealotry and it was bad enough when they didn’t see me as entirely anathema to everything they’d been brainwashed into believing…
I’m so very sorry you can’t find shelter with the people who were supposed to protect and love you with everything in their power, the feeling of alienation from one’s own family is loneliness like no other… I hope with all my heart that you’ve managed or will manage to find people who love you exactly as you are, people who bring you peace.
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