My earliest (or one of) memory is of me when. I was 6 with a steak knife pointed at my jugular crying and trying to will up the courage to do it.
Things I did not improve greatly from there. I remember very little of my childhood or really any part of my life. Bits and pieces here and there.
Guys, I don’t want to jump to conclusions, but I think I might be depressed.
Dunno where you reside and the legality but psilocybin and ketamine have been showing wonderful results in depression and are becoming more available in a medical setting. I’ve done a few K sessions at a local clinic and I won’t say it’s fixed my depression but I do find it easier to look at things glass half full, highly recommend.
Note however, that psychotropics drugs are best taken under medical instruction and are most effective in the long run if you’re also in psychotherapy.
Edit: Wtf did my app just do