I wonder if thereās people out there that make a decision and their body just does something entirely different? Like thereās a lower reliability.
But back to the topic: you mentioned itās the mental process thatās self aware. So my question shifts to what is self awareness and what is awareness to you?
Wellā¦ now that you mention it, yes there are: procrastinators, ADHD. Sometimes no matter how much Iād want to do something, I could only watch things happen. I got what I now realize was a suggested diagnosis 20+ years ago, but at this point itās too late to roll back time.
Self awareness to me, is the ability to think about thinking itself. Realizing that a thinking process is taking place, and being able to analyze and trace it from start to finish.
There are many other processes going on, that Iām only made aware a result that they yield, with no insight into the process itself. Strictly speaking, for all I know, they could also be self-aware, in some separate corner of my brainā¦ but they never contribute any of that awareness to the process thatās deciding to write this š¤·
Oh I know all about procrastination! To me itās just a symptom of mental health issues, but there can of course be many other reasons or factors.
The guy mentions making an app. As a coder who likes coding, I wonder why he wants to do that. Like, itās completely bonkers to write an app if you donāt enjoy coding. It just sounds like he is absolutely terrible at figuring out what fits with him and what doesnāt.
Like making an app isnāt about breaking it down into bricks. Thatās just planning. It really comes down to motivation and properly managing that.
I think itās totally natural to circle around your goal, kinda like an eagle. The thing is when you are depressed or sum you just sit in your nest, waiting to heal, or for someone to come over and help. Which unfortunately doesnāt always work in our modern society.
And his description of some kind of normal person just bothers me. I have heard only of 1 person in my circles who is like that guy without monkey. He is an autist and I am sure he loves having a rigorous plan every day simply because it gives him predictability. Like heāll literally be able to tell you what heāll be doing next week Tuesday at 14. Heās world class in his field but my god I would never want to live like that.
Personally I think people should stop beating themselves up so much. If you treat yourself like shit the world will happily step in and take as much as it can.
Instead you should find out what your strengths are and what motivates you, and then leverage that on the market. So if youāre just being yourself and you end up in the Linux command line and eventually write a small app, then that can slowly grow and once you have 10 years of experience you can decide to go for building the big one. Any other approach is just futile and a waste of perfectly good energy.
Check the ADHD video, I think it complements the series of articles quite nicely.
