There are a lot of reasons but it just boils down to “when I’ve quit, life gets better, when I smoke, life gets worse.”

I’ve done that entire “maybe if I solve X mental issue I can smoke again” strategy, and when I quit, that issue gets solved, and when I start up again because the issue was solved, the issue comes back.

Some issues have been:

I’m not comfortable with myself

I feel isolated

I’m bad with money

I don’t like my job

I feel depressed

Maybe there’s some deep underlying issues I could try to therapy my way out of, but the obvious common denominator seems to be weed.

It’s hard to explain it, but those are my observations.

Fair question, but just wanting to should be enough.

I usually split my time between reddit and lemmy when the community I want isn’t active enough. I’ll lurk reddit and post/comment on lemmy. (/r/leaves)