That ended with me finally explaining to him how the way he and my mother treated me as a child, with undiagnosed (and really not even conceptually understood at the time) ADHD caused me lasting trauma that persists to this day. I’m a 45 year old man, and I cried.
The biggest issue was that when I was in a phase where I pursued something worthwhile, such as a science project, electronics, programming, they stopped me and said I obsessed too much over it, took it away, said I needed to focus more on something else. Which then did not stick, as it was forced, of course.
That’s exactly the kind of obsession that leads to success, though, and it took me years to recover after moving out. Wish I had those skills I wanted to get in all those areas, but I had to focus on one thing at that point, as the end of my 20s was approaching.
Also when they forced me to do something like “clean your room, immediately, until it is done”. With the tools at hand now, I know that I have to talk to myself like “in 20 minutes, set a 15 minute timer and get as much done as you can” or “pick one aspect (garbage, floor, desk) and do that immediately”. Or with homework: I know now that one tool I needed was to set everything up at the desk ready to start to get over that first step. An order like “all homework needs to be done immediately to perfection” does not work.
With my own child, the problem is that I don’t know who he really is down to the core. Is “10 minutes of cleaning on a stopwatch before dinner” just the right push, or too much sometimes, or too little?
I think a little push is right, to yourself and to your children, but it needs to be a “relative push”, depending on the person, the day etc. Some days, just staying in bed and crying is already the best you can do. At our best, we might be capable of doing 10 hours focussed tasks and just need a little “come on, do it”. Which of those is it? That’s the question. I find that meditation helps best to get a feeling for that. Sometimes, I just need a nap and didn’t realise, and that’s why it felt like the world is ending.
If you would, could you tell how you initiated that talk? I just turned 40 and I need to have the same talk…
I’m not OP, but I wanted to wish you good luck.
I was diagnosed in my 50s after my parents had passed, so I can’t do what you want to do. But one thing I’ve found with a neurospicy brain is - there are bad things and good things associated with it. For example, I am really good at learning new things, so I know a little bit about many subjects (and admittedly deep knowledge about some things that don’t matter very much). But that can be a marketable skill.
Finding techniques that work for you can help minimize the bad stuff, while maximizing the good stuff. For example, me making physical lists helps me to unburden my brain and concentrate on other tasks. Checking off tasks when complete is a physical reminder of doing stuff and gives me a feeling of accomplishment.
It’s the only brain you’ve got. You’ll need to find out what works for you, and write that shit down so you don’t forget! 😎 But on your talk to yourself and others, and to that, I think it’s important to frame both the bad and the good.
Best of luck to you!
I have started to mentally replace “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” with “every hurt you heal makes you stronger”. I am sorry you got hurt, I wish you the best on your journey to heal.
I’ve just had to explain to the 80yo grandmother that you can’t yell at my 19yo son because his anxiety ticks are annoying you.
She went full send on telling him that no woman or friends would ever want to be around him unless he stopped… She got even angrier because she yelled at him to stop, and the ticking got louder and more frequent… (duh…)
The only way I managed to get even a glimpse of consideration out of her was to leverage her pride in being a “baby whisperer” as a grandmother, and explained that yelling at an anxious ND about their ticks is like yelling at a baby to make them stop crying…
Only then did she stop for even a moment and actually have a thought about what was happening…
She still yells at him, but at least now we have a way to puller her back a little, as this description makes her feel terrible enough about it, that she leaves him alone for a bit out of feeling guilty…
There are likely factors we don’t know about. Not every situation is perfect, but we can only hope to make it better for today or tomorrow. Thank you for your concern.
I feel like I’m having that conversation with my father all the time and he still doesn’t get it.
The icing on that cake is that he totally has undiagnosed ADHD and PTSD, and he’s a rich old white man so he gets to go through life ignoring the consequences (for other people) and saying things like “That’s not my problem,” when anyone calls him out.
