I thought there was a cockroach running at me on my bed.
Was just a trick of the light.
Omg this happened to me last year in my old shitty apartment, but it was real. Somehow a massive roach ended up on top of my comforter. I had serious trouble sleeping for a while after that, and I was seeing tricky shadows for weeks…
The whole neighborhood had a roach problem, it wasn’t any particular grossness on my part. The general consensus amongst my neighbors at the time was that the nearby restaurants were to blame, but you can be sure I did a deep cleaning after that episode…so glad I don’t live there anymore.
Most every day this week, I’m scared that I’m not going to be able to accomplish all that I want and should.
I’m scared of letting down the people I care about most.
I’m scared that I’m not going to be strong enough when life throws really brutal curve balls at me.
After the fucking Presidential debate last night, I’m scared as living fuck that I’ll be living in a fascist dictatorship by January 7th, 2025.
That fear was compounded with the death of the Chevron ruling by the Supreme Court this morning. US administrative state is basically DOA.
They’re out here doing Project 2025 right the fuck now. It’s not a conspiracy, it’s fucking happening right now.
Honestly, I’ll say it, if you’re not scared shitless by all this at this point, you’re naive, no matter if you’re a US citizen or not. The world’s largest military being controlled by fascists is a bad deal for the whole planet.
Well, there were these two old guys arguing about golf on TV. Can’t say that did wonders for me.
I thankfully didn’t have enough weed or alcohol available to me to make it that deep into the debate, and to be frank, I’m glad I missed this bit. How infuriatingly stupid.
Went hiking and one of my buddies collapsed from heat exhaustion. Had to call a heli.
Before that, when Trump was elected and all the outcomes that came afterwards like roe v wade, school shootings, attacks on racial minorities, oh yeah and denial of covid 19 and vaccines.
Edit: I can probably list more but I would have to keep on editing this post so ima stop it at that.
