meditation really helped me actually
Do people stop their thoughts?
I think so? I especially wish I could do it at night, it’s so hard to fall asleep when your brain refuses to turn off. I am so envious of people who can just shut their eyes and have no thoughts and fall asleep in a couple of minutes.
I’ve noticed that when I can fall asleep, the mind keeps working on its’ own but I slowly stop paying attention to it, like it’s talking in the background and I’m zoning out. I start by gently focusing on my exhales.
Then suddenly the mind will take me on a trip, without me even realizing it. I’m asleep.
Some nights, I do “count sheep”, but with lists, like:
“Five world capitals that start with the letter B”, or
“Twenty movies with Robert De Niro”
This is why I love weed. It shuts the electrical jello in my skull the fuck up.
