I’m just exhausted and am really not enjoying the weather. I’ve felt slightly dysphoric but anxiety mostly drowned that out :/

I read Mia Violet’s “Yes, you are trans enough”. The first part describing her time at school hit so close to home I felt sick. But I also realized I relate a lot to the post-transition stuff, where she talks about presenting how she wants without worrying about passing. It’s definitely freeing to wear whatever stupid outfit I want without caring what other people think. I’m still neurotic about how I’m perceived, though :3

I’m still alive despite it all, I’m probably going to get another part time soon but I’m so fucking sleepy all the damn time idk if I can

About 50 terfs and nazis held an anti-trans rally down here a couple of days ago. 500-1000 of us showed up to drown them out with noise, I handed out about 150 whistles to people, someone played Chappell Roan and we had a dance party, it was intense. 200 cops blocked off the entire intersection and kept us apart by a good 50+ metres. The terfs eventually got forced to leave early, so we ended up having a march through the city and it went to absolute shit.

Arrests were made, cops tackled and beat up a trans woman and put her in the hospital, pepper sprayed a transfem journalist and abused their powers all day to forcefully search people who weren’t doing anything. As usual we were nonviolent but the media keeps calling us aggressive and violent thugs, if you watch any of the footage it’s literally all just the cops turning violent and beating up some of the most vulnerable people. We have a right to demonstrate and the state tried to prevent us from doing so, it’s absolutely disgusting and it’s only going to get worse if they pass their anti-protestor laws.

I ended up bailing earlier than I wanted to, I’ve got an appeal in less than a month and was already on the cops radar that day.

My go to every time this question is asked the past few months is, “The horrors persist, but so do I.”