CW: transphobia
Hello lovely ladies and friends, because of my situation I am basically forced to not be able to transition in any realistic capacity for the foreseeable future. I’m not exactly closeted but I live with very religious family members that would for sure get rid of me if I did try to transition. They already tried when they found out looking through my laptop.
I’ve accepted myself almost 3 years ago now but it’s seeming more and more that she will never show herself. My current situation also prevents any odds of me moving out.
The only person I could be myself around irl we stopped talking due to issues and now I feel completely lost.
With that all said, what exactly can I do to let myself show as I so desperately want but cannot have?
I don’t know if that helps you, but a tip for your laptop:
Create a new partition and use VeraCrypt to encrypt it. Use a long, randomly generated password for it. It’s nearly impossible (read: for your family absolutely impossible) to crack and you can install a browser there and chat tools and save images and stuff like that. This might give you some privacy and help you to explore yourself.
Sorry I can’t help on the actual topic, I found this thread on my frontpage and I don’t know how to deal with your actual situation, but I know things about computers and privacy.
Some tutorial on it: https://gist.github.com/ImaginativeShohag/6dca147f85c1ef4219b6be47e54fa287
