You’re all beautiful (I need you all to know that). In more ways than one.
Trans people are some of the strongest I know.
I don’t know about that… I don’t feel strong. I procrastinate me getting an appointment for psychotherapy. Which is needed for transitioning medical and legally.
i can only imagine realizing you are trans and wading through the swaths of denial and coming to accept yourself requires apt mental fortitude. you made it this far even if you don’t know how; that’s got to be worth something
If you have anyone, ask them to help you. Do it together.
There’s also online options if you feel safer with that.
This!
I can’t remember at the moment, but I’ve totally seen organizations that have members that will guide and accompany you to do all the paperwork and appointments you need to do to fully transition. I wish I could remember right now 😖
As detectivesniffles said above, just reaching this point you have, is something very difficult, worth being proud of.
It sounds a bit cheesy, but there’s this lyric from The Old Witch Sleep and the Good Man Grace that I love:
"You’re not a coward 'cause you cower
You’re brave because they broke you
Yet broken still you breathe
So breathe, breathe just breathe"
And I think that that is real. Just breathe. You’re doing fine. You’ve been brave.