I’ve been in this weird headspace lately where life is just… strange. On the surface, everything is fine. I go to work, eat relatively healthy, try to stay on top of errands, keep things running — the usual. But underneath it all, there’s this constant feeling of dull pressure, like I’m being stretched thin by things that don’t really matter. It’s like I’m always busy, but rarely present.
Every day feels packed, but nothing sticks. I go through the motions, check off tasks, scroll a bit, eat, sleep, repeat. I end the day drained, like I ran a marathon in my head — but can’t really remember anything meaningful that happened. It’s not burnout in the dramatic sense, just this low-grade hum of tiredness and disconnection that never really turns off.
Socially, things have gotten quieter too. I barely see my friends anymore. Most of them are still into drinking and going out — stuff that used to feel exciting but now just feels… loud and repetitive. There was no big falling out. Just different rhythms now. Slower ones. And sometimes I sit with that and wonder if it’s just part of growing up, or if something deeper got lost along the way.
And then my brain starts spinning, usually late at night, when everything’s quiet. I start thinking about the future — and it honestly kind of scares me. Not in a dramatic, apocalyptic way, but in that creeping “things-are-moving-too-fast” way. AI is suddenly everywhere. Wars are happening in the background of our everyday lives. Economies feel fragile. Everything seems more unstable than it used to be, like we’re just pretending things are normal while the ground shifts under us.
And weirdly, my mind keeps drifting back to 2006. I don’t even know why exactly — maybe because it felt slower. Simpler. The internet was just fun and weird, not all-consuming. There were fewer screens, fewer existential threats in the news feed. Boredom existed, but it didn’t feel dangerous — it felt open. It felt like space to breathe. Now everything feels compressed, even rest.
I don’t think I’m depressed. I’m not miserable. But I feel… detached. Like I’m watching my life from the outside, waiting for it to feel like mine again. There’s this quiet emptiness running underneath everything, like background static. Not loud enough to break me, just enough to make everything feel slightly out of tune.
Anyone else feel like this? Have you figured out how to shake it — or at least live with it in a way that makes sense?
How exactly does one go on peertube? There’s probably a lot of instances and it seems kind of overwhelming to “choose an instance I like”.
How exactly does one go on peertube?
For me, it’s by word-of-mouth. You stumble upon someone mentioning a video you might be interested in. A bit like the web used to work prior to its corporate take-over (and its ensuing enshitification), aka thx to careful curating made by actual people that want to share quality/useful info. So, a good starting point would be to start reading blogs focusing on whatever you may be interested in (not IA written or SEO-optimized crap, obviously) or to chat with actual people on forums related to that same interests of yours.
There’s probably a lot of instances and it seems kind of overwhelming to “choose an instance I like”.
One doesn’t go on peertube like one go on YT. There are many instances and that’s one of the quality compared to YT, imho. It’s not owned by a single corporation, the price being that’s is messier and less centralized (ease of use is the main Trojan horse used by corporations to make their ‘service’ so popular and, very quickly after that, a must have/use). With peertube almost anyone can (dedicate resources to) create a peertube instance. Like on Mastodon, or here on Lemmy. So, no one can force you to use ‘their’ instance (or can prevent you from watching whatever content they decided to not stream, and can’t force you to watch some other content either).
If you want something more centralized (but filled with questionable content) you may want to consider odysee.com. Also, keep in mind there is no alternative to YT: it’s unbelievably huge, you wont be able to find a 1-1 equivalency content-wise anywhere else. I think I explained in other thread that I severely reduced the amount of ‘creators’ I watch and not just on YT, in general.
Thanks for the explainer. So it’s more “discover as you go” if I understand correctly, and peertube is just where videos happen to be hosted but discovery generally happens outside of it.
Yeah, I’m aware of odysee. Can’t say I like it much. Maybe if they did some actual moderation instead of letting it be flooded with, as you say, questionable content.
