I want the entirety of mathematics indellably etched into my mental model. I want to see the math behind everything in reality the way Neo saw the matrix code in the walls of the grubby apartment buildings.
What if that just drives you insane due to the problem described by Gödel’s incompleteness theorem? Maybe you’d become susceptible to someone telling you “this statement is false”.
Ideally, I wouldn’t have to see the proofs for everything, just recognize the observable math.
The problem with the “This statement is false” could simply be coupled by something akin to imaginary numbers. Paradoxes can be described mathematically without being solvable.
And when you discover that free will is an illusion because of deterministic patterns, what will you do then?