I feel so isolated, so depressed and anxious whenever I think of things such as getting my GED or finally heading out to go to a dentist and get my teeth fixed. Or hanging out with my worthless, POS problematic family. I have no idea why. I know I’m not smart enough for the GED and I fear things going wrong. I just wanna get it done in just one or a few days. I just want to rest and live without a diploma since I believe I sorta have average intelligence as I was told before. I don’t really have college plans cause I have no interest in anything, and I know there’s some colleges out there that don’t require a diploma or similar.
I just really wish I could pay someone to take it for me or do it in a way that doesn’t take a long time or just bypass it. I don’t even feel like living.
Anxiety over doing something can really kick you down and lead to deep depression and feelings of incompetence. You can do it. For me I just look for a little goal and that helps me tackle the bigger ones. If I’m in a rut I will clean my home or go exercise, anything I can basically do on autopilot that’s an easy win.
You absolutely can get your GED. You can pass it. Once you get thru that block it may change your feelings about your future and what you hope from it. Just taking some elective classes at a community college can lead to new interests and meet new people. It’s just easier to have someone like a teacher push milestones for me to reach instead of relying on my own motivation to do it.
