I feel so isolated, so depressed and anxious whenever I think of things such as getting my GED or finally heading out to go to a dentist and get my teeth fixed. Or hanging out with my worthless, POS problematic family. I have no idea why. I know I’m not smart enough for the GED and I fear things going wrong. I just wanna get it done in just one or a few days. I just want to rest and live without a diploma since I believe I sorta have average intelligence as I was told before. I don’t really have college plans cause I have no interest in anything, and I know there’s some colleges out there that don’t require a diploma or similar.
I just really wish I could pay someone to take it for me or do it in a way that doesn’t take a long time or just bypass it. I don’t even feel like living.
I dont have an interest in most things and despise math. However, being a welder looks a tiny bit interesting to me. Then again, i don’t really know. As I said, I have no interest in most things sadly, which I kick myself over. I can handle physical stuff or at least force myself to. (Which I know is wrong). So thanks a lot. I also hope ot be able to move abroad or get into them abroad. I also heard that without a GED/Diploma, you get paid an unfairly amount less.
Sounds like a lot of this stems from you putting too much pressure on yourself to find something to do. I didn’t land on what my car was going to be until I went to uni at 21 and realised that I was enjoying the classes. I took a gamble on the course I picked and it worked out.
Sounds like you just need to go on a bit of a discovery journey and just try a load of different things. But don’t sweat it, don’t pressure yourself into trying to get into each one you try. Just try and go with the flow as much as possible and if something doesn’t click, start looking around for the next thing that might catch your eye.
I know it’s easier said than done, but I really do feel like a lot of this stems from the expectations you’ve given yourself (or that others have put onto you). You just need to chill, calm down and relax. It’s not going to be the end of the world if you can’t find something immediately. There’s always another entrance in if you just keep walking around. You’ll find the one you fit into eventually.
