Anon self pities instead of self reflecting and fails to grow because of it
I don’t think that we have enough information to draw that conclusion. It is a legit horrible experience though. I can’t imagine what it would be like.
I can. Been there. Couple times. My foster brother and I used to hang out with a bunch of other kids from ages 8-14, and whenever someone had a bright idea for a game like that, completely unprompted would come “but I’m not kissing Dharmacurious.” Shut fucking hurt. I never asked to play those games, never tried to join in. Would try my best to excuse myself before someone suggested a game like that. I didn’t have my first kiss until years and years and years after I lost my virginity, because I only ever did hookups with random strangers online, because I never felt like I was even capable of being desired in anyway other than a quick lay. Being ugly sucks. It truly, honestly does. I shower religiously, I brush my teeth (which, somehow, I still managed to get fucked in that department). Still, I send a picture online, blocked. I’m not an Incel or anything, I don’t think I’m owed a damn thing, it’s just the reality of the situation. I’m a fun, interesting person, with a good sense of humor, thick skin, intelligent, caring, loyal to a fault, and all the other things my shrink has helped me realize. But no one gets to know that, because there has to be some physical attraction for someone to want to get to that point. Can’t fault em for that. But being a bridge troll is lonely, and it sucks. And up thread someone suggested they should shower. That’s a fucked up thing to say, you don’t know their life. And I know green text=fiction, but this one rings fucking true for some of us.
I’m sorry random Internet stranger. Kids are brutal and can surely crush anyone’s ego without hesitation. And people telling you “to shower more” are just idiots with a nematode’s mental capacity and the emotional spectrum of a black&white-tv that’s out of black.
I don’t know anything about your environment, but you will find that special someone. Most likely when you least expect it. With those mentioned qualities you’re a steal. I, personally, would totally prefer a bridge-troll (your words) with character and true values over any empty peacock. The older i got the more obvious that became.
I hope you’ll find your lady. Everyone deserves to be loved. And your chances are way better being a troll than bring rich. That’s a positive hm? 😉
As a kid I was the weird one. It wasn’t my physical attraction, it was just my personality. I’m adhd as fuck and maybe also autistic, so I was hyper around others and couldn’t really read situations/know when to stop talking. I got excluded more times than I can count because of that stuff. These days it feels like my social “success” comes from me muting myself and not having a good time.
Agreed. I think people who blame anon for being in pain fail to see the problem with the behavior of the selfish, stupid people at the party, which is ironic.
I can’t say I’ve had the exact same experience, but I did get picked on by a bunch of “friends” at a birthday party. Tried to play truth or dare and I was a really honest, open kid (mostly), so when it was my turn I said, “truth” and someone asked me if I’d ever kissed a girl, and I said, “no”. They decided that I had to be lying so they asked me a different question, “have I ever had a crush on a girl” to which I also said, “no”. They didn’t believe that either, and one of them jokingly asked, “have you (me being AMAB) ever kissed a boy?” That was coming from a kid in a really conservative Christian family, and it caught me off-guard. The truth was that no, I had never kissed a boy either, but the question made me hesitate. They lept on that.
Honestly, kids can be horrible little creatures. They learn it from their parents, all those little prejudices that the grown ups hold but hold back on to be polite or to fit into changing worlds, they get magnified in children who don’t know who and what and why, only that authority figures have taught them through their actions and the words they don’t even realize the kids are paying attention to.