It’s okay, maybe you’re not ready. Honestly, the psychedelics helped me more than the antidepressants ever did, but you have to be ready to walk down that road.
Actually, I have been interested. It’s not an approved method of treatment, so it’s inaccessible for those of us not familiar (or comfortable with) going the less than legal route. The information I’ve gathered on the topic makes it seem risky, so someone who really knows what they’re doing needs to be there to guide me through it.
TLDR I’m interested, but it needs to be a good experience.
Microdosing is a lot less risky, mushrooms spores are legal to buy, and growing mushrooms is a fun hobby that’s not terribly difficult, just takes some commitment. That’s what I did.
“Less risky” is still a risk I don’t want to take without some good guidance/assistance from someone who’s familiar with the ropes. Although it was quite some time ago, I have attempted to off myself once before, and there have been plenty of times since where I’ve come close to trying again. As such, I think it’s too risky for me to follow your path.