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Well, I’m riding out post-election (nausea? Lack of appetite?) into better dietary choices (significantly less carbs/sugars) it it feels like it’s going well. About to mix up marinade for a whole bunch of chicken to bake to snack on instead of carbs.
Going through my things and getting rid of stuff I don’t use to reduce how much stuff I have. Make myself lighter to move when the time comes.
Paying off anything I can now; phone is payed off, need to pay someone to take the crap i can’t move in my storage unit (that I bought on the stupid whims of 18 year old me.) Still got like 8K in credit cards (I’m a dumbass for that; spent way too much eating out for like 3 years and a couple years of doordash ordering before that) and like 5K on my car
Switched to Linux, not going back this time even if gaming performance might be better. Planning to get an unlocked Pixel to put grapheneOS on for better security in the next payday or two. Need to set up VPN and assess all my logins/accounts (got Proton membership to start de-google-ing)
Going to spend the foreseeable future better educating myself to get a better paying (non-government, fully remote) job. My math skills are atrocious, I should learn more than extremely basic Excel skills, need to master powershell and maybe learn Python. I’d like to get enterprise-server-level experience but that’s heavily silo’d in my current field.
I.
WANT
OUT.
