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Ugh, had to wear male clothes because it was quite cold and I can’t afford anything. Went to lots of second hand stores and of the little that fit, I just felt it looked terrible. So, boymoding it was.
Over time it really eats away at me, and I just dissociate. And now I have to heal it again. I’ll be so happy once I had this all behind me. I at least managed to find something unisex and I tossed the male clothes.
Buy ya, after that ordeal, another. Got lasered, and it makes me look like I have facial hair tattooed on or something for about two weeks. Can’t wear makeup.
Can’t wait to exit terminator mode.
On the positive side, I’m currently staying in some family’s garden in Belgium and they’re super supportive. And last week I was in another Belgian family’s garden and they were, too. The hrt also remains solid every single day and I don’t understand how I ever survived without it.
