It’s not so bad being the worst player on the team. Just means you have a lot of room for improvement as long as you’re willing to learn. Honestly it’s one of my favorite situations to find myself in. “Oh I suck. How can I get better?”
Sounds good unless you really suck and there is no way for you to improve. I might or might not be speaking from experience.
I’m having that same imposter syndrome feeling right now. But one of the SMEs at work today randomly complained to me about another agent and his lack of caring/learning and thanked me for how I am. So. Sometimes it works out well as long as you’ll listen and learn. You can always learn more it just takes time.
In most crafts, and I consider software development one, there’s rarely no way to improve. The problem arises if the client or the employer wants you to improve too quick, faster than you could, and sometimes faster than even possible.
But to be fair, sometimes developer doesn’t want to improve either