Steak
I agree with everything except for when you say that you’ll feel like a winner while you loose everything. You actually know just how fucked up everything is and you feel like a fucking loser piece of shit but you can’t stop. You don’t feel like a winner. You feel like you’re losing everything and it’s extremely painful and you feel like you can’t do anything to stop it. The drugs barely make it any better eventually and then you’ve even lost that.
No it kinda is a balancing act. At least with my two sons, and I’ve done it with both many times. Around 6 months they start being able to balance if you hold them by their buts. They wobble back and forth and find stability. This is just the advanced version of that where you press them up above your head while they balance. It’s easy and they are never really unsafe, if they wobble you just drop your hand and bring your other hand up and catch their bum with two hands. It’s awesome.